good man

definitely one of my favorite videos of life.
love the song too. just watch.

major change

i've been so torn with my career path for a a bit now but 2 nights ago i finally realized what i want to do. life is too short for regrets & doing things we don't want to do. so i've decided to change my major for school. hence the blog title. it goes both ways, a change of my school major & a big change in my life. lol. =] this is a pretty big risk for me simply because nothing is certain at the end of this journey but i'm willing to make the leap.

i'm going to take *groove seriously & really make it a business for myself. i believe that this is my calling & my future. so we'll see what this has in store for me. i'm scared, unsure, faithful & excited all at the same time.

nursing to business... mm hmm.

there's nothing that can't be done

if we all raise our voice as one.

t'was a beautiful memorial. rip.

naruto

man, i'm so beyond being behind on naruto. its been years since i last watched an episode or even read the manga. i was such a crazed fanatic but i just got too impatient to wait for the manga to come out & was just uninterested in watching the stupid fillers on the episodes. but since its been like a good 4 years since i've last saw or read anything... i think its time for me to get back on the ball. its going to take a lonnnggg minute, but i'll get thru it. ha.

i don't even remember the last manga i read. -_- fml.

you made your bed...

now lay in it.


people never cease to amaze me. i never understood why certain people can't handle the repercussions of their actions. things happen & when the dirty laundry is aired out, all you can do is claim your losses & come out with the truth. BE HONEST... ALL THE TIME. don't sit there & dig yourself a bigger hole than you're already in.


people can be dumb but some females can be even dumber. seriously.

cyst

on my way home from work today i was unconsciously feeling my neck & i felt an unusual lump under my chin on the upper part of my neck. i asked my mom to feel & see what it is & she said it might be a CYST. -_- wtf i've never had anything like this before & i'm scared to death on what it is & what the treatment might be.

my papa is freaked out & wants me to see a doctor right away.
i'm so afraid. =/
i'll keep it posted.

this is it

this would have been one of the greatest shows.... RIP.

the greatest of all time

inspiration. idol. icon.
rest in peace MJ
1958-2009

it took me a minute to get on my blogger but i thought i'd pay tribute to the greatest entertainer of all time. i'm blessed to be able to say that i was able to live in his time & had the privilege to grow up to his music. i love music & one of the things i remember when i was young was watching mj's videos on mtv. he changed the game. he has been a great motivating force for many including myself. he embodied what a true entertainer is & no one will ever touch him. although his body will perish, the legacy he left behind will live forever. we'll miss you mike, you did good.

A-Team

these boys are definitely going to hold it down for VEGAS!!
keep them in your prayers! they WILL make the show dammit!
vegas all day baby. <3


thanks for the shout out boys!
daffi
ateam manager.

soliloquy

to tweet or not to tweet?
i'm a bit anti-twitter simply because i really don't understand what the whole point is. but then again i do wanna see what all the hype is about. it just seems like everyone & they momma is doing it. & the only real reason as to why i even am considering it is because of DMAGIC and his journey to a million followers. lol. i'm struggling just keeping up with myspace & figuring out facebook, so can i even handle a twitter? lol

to go blackberry or not to go blackberry?
i've been considering between getting a blackberry or an iphone. i just can't make up my mind. i'm pretty positive my contract for tmobile is up & i'm ready to switch providers & embark life with a new phone. the iphone is cool with all the applications but blackberry just seems more on an adult tip. i don't know! what should i get?!

to be verizon or not be verizon?
i guess this kind of depends on my choice in phone but do i really need the realiability of verizon for that extra 20 or so bucks a month? ughh! i don't know. i need help.

to perm or not to perm?
so i've been on this love of curly hair lately. i wear my hair curly most of the time anyway. its simply because i'm so damn lazy & if i had curly hair i can just throw some anti-frizz product on & go. BUT i'm scared that i'll be limited to what i can do with my hair. then again i might just be scared of the change. but i am scared of the damage it will do to my hair as well.


..... decisions, decisions.

cookies n' cream

addiction at its finest.

so lately i've been eating 1 bar of hersheys cookies n' cream almost every damn day. wtf. this is soooo not healthy but dammit! i can't help it! haha along with a lot of bad food i've been eating lately, i've been sluggish. what happened to my healthy life change? i just don't know...

last night after i picked up my brother at the airport he said he needed to eat healthier & dammit we do! since the parents have been gone our diets consist of frozen hot pockets & fast food. i recently got breakfast food but that's it! i need to put my cooking skills into action now. this whole eating & feeling like crap is a no go. PLUS my brother went to the doctors and found out he had high cholesterol. wtf? at the age of 25? now that's intense.

so we went grocery shopping last night & today after work i bought more produce. so on a seriously note, healthy eating for sure. & i need to get my fatten plumpy body back in the gym & get on a runing regimine in the mornings. seriously.

gotta find the will to motivate myself because sleeping vs. running is a really hard decision at 6 o'clock in the morning. -_-

sluffin'

i am so lame for sluffin' on blogging.

its 3am & i am still awake. i'm having a hard time sleeping.
there is so much to update it on.
BUT, i am just way to lazy right now.

i promise that i'll do some updating sometime this week.
so for now...

Au revoir.

change

i seriously am in need of a haircut. although i've been working on my long hair for a while now... i really just want to chop it off! i'm leaning towards shoulder length hair right now. maybe an asymmetrical cut of some sort. i need something different!

suggestions?

direction

what do i want?
what do i want?
what do i want?
... what do i want?

a lot of thought as to what i really want to do with my life has been eating away at my brain & energy lately. this semester is just about over and by the end of the summer i will be going into full effect with trying to get my nursing career on track. but ever since attending vitality i couldn't help but realize how much dance is a passion of mine. last night i woke up for school at 7am, had work till 9pm & hi-fi till 11pm & i was thinking to myself that i was not going to make it & i just was not in the mood. but as soon as i got into the groove of rehearsal i forgot about being tired & i was just focused on dance.

something that makes me feel this way just isn't some useless hobby that i'm wasting my life away with. i feel as if it is something more. after talking with dayna [who i absolutely adore!] she made me realize that dancing with a cause or a purpose means so much more & no one will be able to take that away from me. so it got me thinking... what if i use dance to service others. i want to help the world thru dance. if not the world, then my community but will eventually help the world. =]

every person who dances, dances with their own reasons & i think this is mine. i want to dance or USE dance as a platform to inspire & motivate others, create a dance program for the schools here in clark county, have shows to benefit worthwhile causes, motivate other dancers, etc. in my eyes, this is what makes sense. i feel as if i've had these whispers about going forth with dance in SOME way & slowly i feel these whispers turning into messages. now the messages have been stressing me out & have become a problem. i can't stop thinking about how i want dance to be a part of my life & who i am from now... untill forever.

recently, i've listened to a leadership/christian seminar on CD & it said on there... "god finished before he began" & it emphasizes that god has set a plan for you & put you on this earth for a reason. i'm suppose to start something that's already been finished & i can't help but feel that this is what i'm suppose to start. this is the direction & the vision that god has set for me.

dayna told me last night that i can do whatever it is i want & that anything is possible. all i have to do is say the word & it will be done. no one can tell me i can't do anything or stop me from doing what i love & want but myself. i think that i've stopped myself from making the leap.

ughhh! these next 2 months what out my parents are going to be a real soul searching & self discovering period for me. no parents to nag me & pressure me about anything... just me. so if it means for me to ask myself, "what do i want?" a million times to come to an answer, then so be it.

love of the dance

i don't even know how i came across this picture... i was searching images on 'soul searching' & this came up as one of the hits. random BUT how fitting is this picture to describe my love of dance. i don't know... but it totally gives that vibe to me.

if dance had a heart... it would look like this. =]

vitality

so yesterday i got off work early, i sent my moms & pops off to the phillipines [they'll be gone for 2 months, yay!] then i went to the vitality dance show. i had no one to go with me but i eventually called jessika & she agreed to go. it went to a good cause which was, myhopechest for breast cancer. the show was created and performed by CIRQUE DU SOLEIL artists! hani was in the show, whom i met at dmoe's class with hifi/form lv. he is such a riot! & he was amazing along with all the other dancers. & also lauren & marisa were in the show too! yay hifi!

all the pieces were utterly amazing. i totally appriciated all the choreography, the story, the outward expression, etc. & the dancers were incredible. so sickening they were diseased.

the satisfying part of the evening was that jessika really had a great time & actually appriciated the show as well. i mean she's not a dancer or anything but she was blown away. & i was glad to have brought her to show her another side of dance [besides the hip hop shows she's watched me in]. so yay to jess!

after an amazing night of dance we ended up eating at ichiza. yellowtail tar tar... bomb. & on that note i'll end this blog here.

streetlight

when is a person truly living? in life many people work hard and go for the things that are certain & veer away from the uncertainties of the world. in class today we were talking about careers, doing what makes you happy & answering the age long question, 'what should i do with my life?'. i have come across this question many times in the past few months. i've been struggling with trying to figure out what my heart wants me to do & doing the 'right' career path.

if money was no issue i would be a school counselor & help kids figure out what they wanted to do & point them in the right directions. because often times i feel like i should have had that in my middle to high school years. i would want to open up a dance studio & feed those who are hungry for dance. i would join the peace core and actually make an impact on the world by helping those who are less fortunate. i would become an active environmentalist & help people realize that the earth is our home & we need to preserve it.

so why do i feel as if i can't really pursue these aspirations? why is it that when i have it set in my mind that i know i would be able to do these things, a part of my conscience holds me back? why. i guess growing up i was never encouraged to reach for these kinds of things. so a piece of me doesn't want to turn away from what my parents & family instilled in me & not go into nursing. don't get me wrong nursing is a great field & i'm still doing a service to people but i can't help but get the feeling of, 'i dont think this is for me'.

i think the main thing is the uncertainties that go into these dreams is what has me scared. its like what my professor said in class, people like things that are certain. its like a person in the parking lot at night trying to find their car keys under a street light & won't go outside of it cause they're afraid of the dark.

am i afraid of the dark? do i not want to go outside of the little bubble of a world that i have created for myself & my future? i just hope that the whispers of my unconscious feelings of what i should do with my life finally get to me. i just hope i answer them sooner than later.

HI-FI, PLEASE STAND UP

so pulse was this past friday & it was a great experience. the vibe & feeling on stage felt great but i guess the outward projection wasn't congruent with what i thought. but the great news is that there's only getting better from here. i'm so excited to get work these girls & see them grow even more! we got 4th in the street division. not bad. haha i love my hifi!

CONGRATS TO OUR BROTHER TEAM FORMALITY LV!!!
they won 1st in the collegiate division & 1st over all !! so that's what made the experience a million times better. i feel like if they win we win. =] EKetc LV alll the wayy babyyy!




PS. i love you best fraannn! that's all i hear in this video! hahaha you are too mahhtz! you are my inspiration. you amazing!

ballas hough band - birthday

so yehh, i take a lot from mike. he's definitely my faves. i've learned so much from him. so inspiring you duranski! lol but anyways, this was his groove class & it was soo much fun. the song is such a feel good song, it just makes me happy. =]

sooo watch & enjoyyy. [far right in the green flanel]


mike & kim

wrist stay rocky

ewww to me cause i totally sucked ass on this vid. BUT IT WAS SO MUCH FUN! this was our little workshop before urban legends back in february. this was like the longest piece of my life! haha & joey's stuff i have the hardest time with! -_- damn you joey cruz!

BUT i love this man. so sickening. as christank would say, "the quite storm". so inspiring. wise. papa cruz. lol

viva la joey! hahaa