Wednesday, September 23, 2009

ramble

its been a while since i've been on this thing. i'm disgusted on how i continue to neglect reflecting on my thoughts. its something i need to do but every time i sit and blog... nothing comes to mind. as i'm in the process to make my thoughts concrete it just doesn't come out! what is wrong with me?!

there is so much on my mind, so much weighing down my heart & so much troubling my soul. well.. maybe not so much but i've been so in and out of it. so since i can't put my thoughts into a nice neat little post i'm going to start rambling....

time. i know there's plenty in a day but why is it that i feel that i don't have enough. what am i doing in my days that eat so much of my time? work, school, hifi, groove... i think its because my life isn't organized that i can't take things one at a time. i've trying to keep up with my planner and compiling 'to do' lists but i lack the motivation to stay on track. i feel like my life is a mess.

unfit. i'm sluggish and just a year ago i was on track to getting skinny. i'm not satisfied with my body and i can't help but whine about it. when i try to get on top of getting back into the gym i never go. i gotta start eating healthier and i need to run or gym it in the morning before my day starts. because as i noticed i simply can't go at night.

school. i am absolutely loving it. i actually enjoy what i'm doing in school. this story is for another day. just simply put... i'm loving the switch.

there's so much more... but again... it just can't come out. well maybe for another post.

as;ljkfa;slihd;glkjg;!!

Monday, September 14, 2009

to the peoples that rise to the sun

shut up. or speak if you must. just leave my nombre outchore mouthchos. now go get a dictionary cause i know these few sentences will trouble your bean sized minds.

- sunset

Wednesday, September 02, 2009

shallow & empty

i'm tired of shallow connections & empty relationships.


i want depth. i want to be interested. i want spontaneity. i crave genuine. i need intimacy. i yearn for conversation. i want passion. i crave what is real...

why do i intentionally sell my self short? what i THINK i want, does not suffice. why? i have done the shallow & empty for far too long. i deserve a deeper connection. a connection that keeps me stimulated, exhilarated, wondering. i'm entitled to a relationship full of communication, understand, respect, equality & trust.


i deserve what i expect.