here's to...

all the lessons that i have learned this year. i have become a better person by going thru all the trials & tribulations that this year has presented to me. so much growth has happened with me this past year & i wouldn't have it any other way.

all the memories that the year has bestowed upon me. so many great times has happened this past year. from the roadtrips, to the shows, the dancing, the drinking, the partying. ha. the year has definitely been good to me.

all the people i have met. i am glad that i have come across many of you. i have enjoyed everyone's company. honestly. to the people who i met for a season.. we had fun. to the people who i met for a reason... i'm glad that i found you. & the people whose been there & stays around for a lifetime... i'm blessed to have you. =]


2008, i have been anticipating your end lately, but honestly we had some fruitful times i must say. so before i tuck you away & end your last day with a beginning of a new chapter... i say thank you. thank you for all the great times you have brought me, the people who made my life eventful & the memories i can always look back on to remind me how truely blessed i am.

farewell. its been an amazing journey.
& hello to the upcoming road ahead in 2009. <3

*groovin'

jaymazing style... =]

really, i enjoy jay's style. his choreography is how i usually like to dance. ehh i really need to step outside the box & learn different styles. i need to learn to be more... girlie? ha. anyway here's groove from this past saturday. what a way to end the year! thanks jay for teaching & for everyone who came out & supported. look out for what's in store for 2009! you won't be disappointed. thanks for all the support.

PS! -- my most favoritest KYLE HANAGAMI was here last week & he was at class too along with his boyfriend brandon. oh how i love hanagami. so amazing he is! [he's on the one dancing to the left of me in the selects video]


jay's select. [in the orange & black shirt on the right. ^_^ ]


jay solo

project 365

i have started a new blog.
& its sole purpose is a new project that i have decided to go thru this upcoming year. i have made a choice to take in the days & stop to smell the roses. PLZ PLZ PLZ stop by & take a gander. hopefully, you will consider doing your own project365. =]

www.daffisproject365.blogspot.com

click the link above <3
& subscribe as well. lol

wishing you...

a merry christmas !!

well i really don't have anything good to say but merry christmas everyone. =] i hope everyone's day was as blessed as mine. i wish everyone the best today & always.

god bless. <3

twilight

i just want to comment on this subject for a QUICK moment....

the story is endearing & more or less i can say i am IN LOVE with the edward cullen character & persona. but the movie was pretty much normal. the performance of the actors could have been A LOT better... especially kristen stewart's acting. everyone else was pretty much bareable. bella's character was so much deeper than the mediocre acting that was portrayed. ehh, we shall see what's going to happen in the next movie.


&& for the record robert pattinson is pretty hot. lol but i don't find him to be breathtaking or find myself being obsessive over him tho. =] my favorite character is jasper. lol

ps.
i am infatuated by the song... "flightless bird american mouth" by iron & wine. ha.
okay enough of this ! good night cruel world.

the beginning of an end

still in this unexplainable reading frenzy !! what is a girl to do. since last tuesday, i have laid in bed under my blankie with my reading light brightly lighting my room till the wee hours of the morning. so at this point, i have finished THREE books. i am currently embarking on a fourth book. seriously at this rate, i'll probably be finishing 10 books by the end of the month. =] so amazing. to touch base on the title of the blog... this fourth book i am starting is the end of this 'extensive', or so i thought before i started this obsession, saga. so i have to say, when i find something i get into... i really do become obsessive to the point of no return. lol

anyway... i have been eyeing 'influence' at target, thanks to christank, & her recent blogs about the book. that's definitely on my "book to buy" list for my paycheck tomorrow !! well, techniqually today. ha. also i have plans to finally finish 'Cunt' by the end of this month too. also, thanks to tanya i'll be reading a 11 book series in the upcoming month as well. =] so many books & yet SO LITTLE time !! i need to up my speed reading game. lol


ON ANOTHER NOTE !!
I HAVE ANOTHER STYE !! my left eyelid aches & hurts. i can't begin to describe my extreme discomfort with this one. usually i can stand my stymies but this one seems to just ache. & thinking back on time & around this time last year i had a VERY SEVERE stye. =[ it got bad to where i spent my christmas eve in the ER. =/ & here i am again 6 DAYS BEFORE CHRISTMAS with another inconvient stye. WHY, OH WHY?! i am hoping that it goes away soon. although, i have been lazy with taking the needed precautions to get rid of it. ahh, my bad habit of sluff. lol so pray for me.

& with that said.... in all honesty, ALL i could possibly want/ask for this CHRISTMAS, is to never have another stye in my life. =] i am absurdly prone to getting styes. & i have to say i have had it up to here with these things.

oh & also, i do ask for some good reads. i want books. i want to get a bookshelf & i want to fill it with a wide array of books that i've read. =]

PS,
THE SNOW IN VEGAS WAS BE-YOU-TI-FULLLL. that's something i do miss about home. aka, seattle... is the four season weather. now back to my books. =]

indulging in guilty pleasures

wow. it has been AGES since i have blogged. believe me, i've tried to get to it... but it just ends up being put on the back burner. =/ this has been such an addiction for me since i started it, thanks to lexi MY BEST FRAAN, but i've since been indulging in some new found guilty pleasures. i'm not going to exactly say what it is but i have been preoccupied for the last week & even ate up my weekend.

i've been distraught since i've found this new found pleasure... please, do not think anything all nasteh, lol because its not. lets just say i've been reading. try & pry any information other than that & expect to be disappointed, simply because... 'i'll never tell'. =] really though i have been massively indulging myself in this recent discovery for literature. its kind of odd, i have to say, but i am completely PROUD of myself for it. i haven't really sat myself in front of, nor paid much attention to television this past week either.

i've been through 2 books already. it started at target. they have books there that are resonably priced. & i've been in their best seller section making a list of books i would be like to purchase, as soon as i acquire the money to do so. in reslut of this new fasination, i have neglected many things.... such as myspace, youtube, blogging etc. everything seems so mind rotting since i've been indulging in my new hobby. reading takes patience & that is definitely something i need to work on. so this is helping me do so. =]


so since my start of my reading spree i have made myself a promise...
that from here on out, i would read. i would always be indulging myself in some kind of literature that i enjoy reading. school is fast approaching its return to my life & i will be busy with that, but this promise is to have me read outside the required reading i would be doing for school. ew, school. -_- lol


& there it is... the blog entry that was long over due.
ha. as if anyone really cares to read. =]


ps.
prelude was amazing. i love seeing the eketc family. it was a pleasure to see familiar faces that i have come to know in the dance community. =] dance is good, friends are doing great, & the homies... well they're being homies. && i'm also kind of lost in a sense of all the mess this end of the year is bringing. BUT i shall blog on that subject matter later. if i ever even get around to it.

love in this club

hmm... one more thing actually...
so erik put this up & its from FULL OUT 2008! this is the only video up because there will be a dvd, which i am still waiting to come out cause i want one! well this is the closing piece of the grand opening of the show. its 'love in this club' by usher & it was choreographed by the most amazing PHILLIP GENIZA. i adore him.. really, i do. i'm like the 3rd one from the right on the very top riser. you'll never spot me, but just an FYI. lol enjoyyyy

preview

so today my favoritest form boys debut/previewed their set to our friends & fam who couldn't make it to prelude this weekend. & aj asked me to come in early to do some critiques, which of course i did. =] & i am so proud of them. yes, there are the some cleaning bits still need to be done but overall very good! GOO BOYS! well, i'll be there saturday because i am all about support this here company of ours. 4 EKetc TEAMS are going to be in the show... FORMALity SD, FORMALity LV, Mass Appeal & Flipside! holler for a dollar!! but i won't be seeing flipside tho. sad face for that =[ anywhooo, i am excited to see familiar faces also. can i just say, I LOVE SEEING MY EKETC FAMZ! honestly. thank god for blessing me with them. yay!

afterwards... i sat in for the rehearsal to help clean & what not. i started flipping around which is soo funsie! anyway, i felt awkward trying to give imput when i'm not director. i just simply hate being that authority figure when i don't direct them. but i'm only there to help & how i run my girlies is how i talk to them. got the feeling of 'ugh, wtf' lol its okay i love you boys still. i must say pretty frustrating & i only see what i have to personally work on as a director. also, instilling a right mind set to the girls when they come to rehearsal to work.

i'm still getting into the niche of really 'knowing' what to do as a director but i absolutely know what i want. i know how i want it done & how i want the team to keep up. its been really hard keeping up with rehearsals now-a-days... thanksgiving, busy schedules, this preview... -_- been sluffin & i totally admit it. but after prelude & this weekend is done & over with... we're back on it! i'm reaching for greatness with this team. & can i add, i love my hi-fi girlies. i do, i do, i do-oo! & that's that.



... i've been obsessed with blogging lately. multiple blogs in a day!! what can i say?! i have a lot on my mind. thanks to those who read. hiiiii !! & now, goodbye.

binge

for the past 2 & a half weeks i've been on so off my plan of eating better, stay working out etc! ugh! i guess i've deprived myself so much of all the gross foods in life that i find so irresistible. there is no self control in my life lately. -_- i feel so gross & i totally feel the difference! so i'm making this the mark of my REbeginning of my plan. =] no moreee nasteh foods, no more binging! i'll indulge in those things once in a while, but not like i have been these past almost 3 weeks. & i gotta get in the flippin gym! i've gone ONCE since my birthday. honestly... i'm disgusted with myself. lol.

anyway... all that hard work, washed away in 3 weeks of self indulging. =/ but i will get back on track & find middle ground with myself...


anyyywhoooo... PRELUDE SOCAL THIS SATURDAY!!!
super excited to see formSD, formLV & mass appeal! holler!!
& on FRIDAY going to ROK for the pacquiao preparty? got the invite this morning so excited for this weekend. OH YEAH! & alki doesn't help me getting back on track. so fatty! yuck! haha

audrey kawasaki

just thought i would share. my background also comes from this artist. =]

paradox of our time

The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings, but shorter tempers; wider freeways, but narrower viewpoints; we spend more, but have less; we buy more, but enjoy it less.

We have bigger houses and smaller families; more conveniences, but less time; we have more degrees, but less sense; more knowledge, but less judgment; more experts, but more problems; more medicine, but less wellness.

We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get angry too quickly, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too seldom, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom.

We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often. We've learned how to make a living, but not a life; we've added years to life, not life to years.

We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet the new neighbor. We've conquered outer space, but not inner space; we've done larger things, but not better things.

We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul; we've split the atom, but not our prejudice.

We write more, but learn less; we plan more, but accomplish less. We've learned to rush, but not to wait; we have higher incomes, but lower morals; we have more food, but less appeasement; we build more computers to hold more information to produce more copies than ever, but have less communication; we've become long on quantity, but short on quality.

These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion; tall men, and short character; steep profits, and shallow relationships. These are the times of world peace, but domestic warfare; more leisure, but less fun; more kinds of food, but less nutrition.

These are days of two incomes, but more divorce; of fancier houses, but broken homes. These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throw away morality, one-night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer to quiet to kill.

It is a time when there is much in the show window and nothing in the stockroom; a time when technology has brought this letter to you, and a time when you can choose either to make a difference, or to just hit "Skip Ahead"...

- Bob Moorehead

Lexi was here

&& I love you best friend =)

he said no

I asked God to take away my habit.
God said, No.
It is not for me to take away, but for you to give it up.

I asked God to make my handicapped child whole.
God said, No.
His spirit is whole, his body is only temporary

I asked God to grant me patience.
God said, No.
Patience is a byproduct of tribulations; it isn't granted, it is learned.

I asked God to give me happiness.
God said, No.
I give you blessings; Happiness is up to you.

I asked God to spare me pain.
God said, No.
Suffering draws you apart from worldly cares and brings you closer to me.

I asked God to make my spirit grow.
God said, No.
You must grow on your own! , but I will prune you to make you fruitful.

I asked God for all things that I might enjoy life.
God said, No.
I will give you life, so that you may enjoy all things.

I asked God to help me LOVE others, as much as He loves me.
God said...Ahhhh, finally you have the idea.



god bless. <3

before bed

i just want to say...
my lanta it's december.

& this means christmas music for hours on end at work. lol
on another not as well... christmas shopping this year will be kept to an absolute minimum. i'm making a very short list this holiday season, simply because $$$ is limited & i have life to handle. BUT i do have a little something something planned for the wonderful people in my life. definitely thoughtful cards & little knick knacks. haha. seriously. a thoughtful gift is always the best gift. ya dig?



"It is Christmas in the heart that puts Christmas in the air."
- W.T. Ellis

weekend affairs

1. wednesday, went to blue martini with the girlies for faith's birthday. i had so much fun. =] first time there & i must say it was pretty coolbeanz. rolled out with jack which is always funsies. & also prior to that, i went to the boy's bball game at the YMCA... its okay boys ya'll are winners in my heart. <3

2. thanksgiving, was cool i guess.i know what i'm thankful for. & poopoo to parental control.

3. friday, went to faith's shindig. it was her new york themed party which i totally enjoyed myself at. & i saw JAY! =] oh how i miss that mister man. then we told scary stories around the bondfire outside faith's house. & OH MY LANTA! i was so scared. -_- lame.

4. saturday, *groove with slim. ugh house is so redics! i need more of it in my life tho. its uber fun. but all in all very good class from slim. & before that went to eat at international house of PANKEKES with lexx. i love my best =] i actually learned something. =] holler! then went out to TAO with the famz & mayn it was so fun. i went out with jem & i must say... being 21, local & a girl is the best! =]

5. random thoughts....
life is good but i'd really prefer to not be home. =/ i love mama&papa and yes i do appriciate what they have done, but i need to be off & be on my own. decisions, decisions.