A cool summer night, makes room for a cool summer day. This is never the case in vegas summers. I can't complain because I'm lovin it.

dreamer

"All people dream; but not equally. those who dream by night in the dusty recesses of their minds wake in the day to find it was vanity. But the dreamers of the day are dangerous people, for they may act their dreams with open eyes to make it possible." -- T.E. Lawrence

*groove w. emmett

i haven't blogged in a while but i couldn't go to bed without sharing thoughts on tonight's *groove class with emmett agapay....

studio was opened on time, i handled front desk we had about 25 people come take which is always a good thing to see, & emmett was simply amazing. i was steady working... & i mean WORKING... in class tonight. seriously, i feel bad for those who didn't come out because i truly feel like this was a class that people shouldn't have missed out on. i haven't worked so hard, sweated so much, vibed so amazingly, felt so much energy & had so much fun in a class in sooooooooo long! actually, i haven't felt that type energy at groove EVER! to be perfectly honest.

he taught so effectively, he really worked it out with the students... he really knows what he is doing. as i looked around in class i didn't see 1 person who didn't get the choreo. granted there were the different levels of dancer but there was no one lost or anything. the piece was so much fun, he taught with great insight, good knowledge & constructive critiques. man, i wanna be like that for real. although i suck at choreo... i want to be able to teach like him. i really need to start bringing in more instructors like emmett into groove. keep *groove on it!

i don't know... but whatever that was at groove tonight, i DEFINITELY need more of it. the vibe & energy was amazing. its days like this that remind me why i do this dance thing.

very, refreshing.



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group 1 (black sweats & stripped green tank) =]


emmett & company

C.U.R.E.T.

one thing i love with learning is that when something strikes me, it stays with me. i simply can't get enough of my past psychology class. i actually learned something that i can use & apply to my life. sometimes when teachers give you something that they believe would better who you are or benefit your life, it seems all too artificial. not with this professor, he kept it real & he made class fun. with this class there was so much i took away from it & i can't help but bring up certain things that were taught in his lectures....

one of my faves was his lecture of LOVE.
it wasn't your mushy gushy gag type of love topic but a lecture on what a love relationship is. we all have our own perception on what love is, but he said that all love was the same. each couple experiences love differently but the foundation of what a love relationship is same.

he made us write down 5 things we wanted in a relationship. people wrote down the usual... communication, trust, an adventurous significant other, spontaneity etc. whatever you could thing of it was written down. but after he broke down the CURET MODEL it made everything else seem so elementary.

CURET...
Communication, Understanding, Respect, Equity, Trust.
if a love relationship does not have this then its not a love relationship.

communication - something we do so seldom but needs to be done. we as human beings are not mind readers. so we need to communicate to one another our needs & wants.

understanding - we need to learn to understand each person's needs and wants. what's communication without understanding, right?

Respect - plain & simple... there needs to be a level of respect for one another. if you respect the other person you won't go & cheat or do crazy shinanagins.

Equity - you are simply 1/2 of a relationship. it takes two baby lol. it takes two EQUAL halves in order to make 1 relationship work. duh? but as simple as that may seem many couples see themselves as better than the other.

Trust - & this one is a given.

but the thing is, its a continuum. so you can't trust someone 100% because if you do than that makes the other person perfect & no human is perfect. life is not a dichotomy & its the same with this. the continuum has to be pretty mutual on both sides.

in class there were the obvious objections on this model. some said they need to have spontaneity. others said they wanted appreciation. but with everything that people brought up our professor said, there can only be 5, so what would you take down from the model in order to place their suggestion. & honestly you can't take one down. everything else comes along with the different couple's needs but CURET is the base of what their relationship must build on. & most things just fall under one or the other categories.

he said its like thread from a sweater.... if you take one out the whole sweater comes undone. what a great analogy. & i've seen this logic put to the test numerous times & it proves to be so right.

& this isn't just simply for a significant other but can apply to your love relationship with your parents, friends etc. i see this lacking with my relationship with my parents & also with their relationship.

hmm... its so touchy, but definitely something to think about. if it was this simply why do some people have a hard time getting it & applying it? is it because they're daunted with the fact that maybe a love relationship requires work? makes me wonder....

tap : challenge

man i need to see this movie again.

good man

definitely one of my favorite videos of life.
love the song too. just watch.

major change

i've been so torn with my career path for a a bit now but 2 nights ago i finally realized what i want to do. life is too short for regrets & doing things we don't want to do. so i've decided to change my major for school. hence the blog title. it goes both ways, a change of my school major & a big change in my life. lol. =] this is a pretty big risk for me simply because nothing is certain at the end of this journey but i'm willing to make the leap.

i'm going to take *groove seriously & really make it a business for myself. i believe that this is my calling & my future. so we'll see what this has in store for me. i'm scared, unsure, faithful & excited all at the same time.

nursing to business... mm hmm.

there's nothing that can't be done

if we all raise our voice as one.

t'was a beautiful memorial. rip.

naruto

man, i'm so beyond being behind on naruto. its been years since i last watched an episode or even read the manga. i was such a crazed fanatic but i just got too impatient to wait for the manga to come out & was just uninterested in watching the stupid fillers on the episodes. but since its been like a good 4 years since i've last saw or read anything... i think its time for me to get back on the ball. its going to take a lonnnggg minute, but i'll get thru it. ha.

i don't even remember the last manga i read. -_- fml.

you made your bed...

now lay in it.


people never cease to amaze me. i never understood why certain people can't handle the repercussions of their actions. things happen & when the dirty laundry is aired out, all you can do is claim your losses & come out with the truth. BE HONEST... ALL THE TIME. don't sit there & dig yourself a bigger hole than you're already in.


people can be dumb but some females can be even dumber. seriously.

cyst

on my way home from work today i was unconsciously feeling my neck & i felt an unusual lump under my chin on the upper part of my neck. i asked my mom to feel & see what it is & she said it might be a CYST. -_- wtf i've never had anything like this before & i'm scared to death on what it is & what the treatment might be.

my papa is freaked out & wants me to see a doctor right away.
i'm so afraid. =/
i'll keep it posted.

this is it

this would have been one of the greatest shows.... RIP.

the greatest of all time

inspiration. idol. icon.
rest in peace MJ
1958-2009

it took me a minute to get on my blogger but i thought i'd pay tribute to the greatest entertainer of all time. i'm blessed to be able to say that i was able to live in his time & had the privilege to grow up to his music. i love music & one of the things i remember when i was young was watching mj's videos on mtv. he changed the game. he has been a great motivating force for many including myself. he embodied what a true entertainer is & no one will ever touch him. although his body will perish, the legacy he left behind will live forever. we'll miss you mike, you did good.

A-Team

these boys are definitely going to hold it down for VEGAS!!
keep them in your prayers! they WILL make the show dammit!
vegas all day baby. <3


thanks for the shout out boys!
daffi
ateam manager.

soliloquy

to tweet or not to tweet?
i'm a bit anti-twitter simply because i really don't understand what the whole point is. but then again i do wanna see what all the hype is about. it just seems like everyone & they momma is doing it. & the only real reason as to why i even am considering it is because of DMAGIC and his journey to a million followers. lol. i'm struggling just keeping up with myspace & figuring out facebook, so can i even handle a twitter? lol

to go blackberry or not to go blackberry?
i've been considering between getting a blackberry or an iphone. i just can't make up my mind. i'm pretty positive my contract for tmobile is up & i'm ready to switch providers & embark life with a new phone. the iphone is cool with all the applications but blackberry just seems more on an adult tip. i don't know! what should i get?!

to be verizon or not be verizon?
i guess this kind of depends on my choice in phone but do i really need the realiability of verizon for that extra 20 or so bucks a month? ughh! i don't know. i need help.

to perm or not to perm?
so i've been on this love of curly hair lately. i wear my hair curly most of the time anyway. its simply because i'm so damn lazy & if i had curly hair i can just throw some anti-frizz product on & go. BUT i'm scared that i'll be limited to what i can do with my hair. then again i might just be scared of the change. but i am scared of the damage it will do to my hair as well.


..... decisions, decisions.

cookies n' cream

addiction at its finest.

so lately i've been eating 1 bar of hersheys cookies n' cream almost every damn day. wtf. this is soooo not healthy but dammit! i can't help it! haha along with a lot of bad food i've been eating lately, i've been sluggish. what happened to my healthy life change? i just don't know...

last night after i picked up my brother at the airport he said he needed to eat healthier & dammit we do! since the parents have been gone our diets consist of frozen hot pockets & fast food. i recently got breakfast food but that's it! i need to put my cooking skills into action now. this whole eating & feeling like crap is a no go. PLUS my brother went to the doctors and found out he had high cholesterol. wtf? at the age of 25? now that's intense.

so we went grocery shopping last night & today after work i bought more produce. so on a seriously note, healthy eating for sure. & i need to get my fatten plumpy body back in the gym & get on a runing regimine in the mornings. seriously.

gotta find the will to motivate myself because sleeping vs. running is a really hard decision at 6 o'clock in the morning. -_-

sluffin'

i am so lame for sluffin' on blogging.

its 3am & i am still awake. i'm having a hard time sleeping.
there is so much to update it on.
BUT, i am just way to lazy right now.

i promise that i'll do some updating sometime this week.
so for now...

Au revoir.

change

i seriously am in need of a haircut. although i've been working on my long hair for a while now... i really just want to chop it off! i'm leaning towards shoulder length hair right now. maybe an asymmetrical cut of some sort. i need something different!

suggestions?

direction

what do i want?
what do i want?
what do i want?
... what do i want?

a lot of thought as to what i really want to do with my life has been eating away at my brain & energy lately. this semester is just about over and by the end of the summer i will be going into full effect with trying to get my nursing career on track. but ever since attending vitality i couldn't help but realize how much dance is a passion of mine. last night i woke up for school at 7am, had work till 9pm & hi-fi till 11pm & i was thinking to myself that i was not going to make it & i just was not in the mood. but as soon as i got into the groove of rehearsal i forgot about being tired & i was just focused on dance.

something that makes me feel this way just isn't some useless hobby that i'm wasting my life away with. i feel as if it is something more. after talking with dayna [who i absolutely adore!] she made me realize that dancing with a cause or a purpose means so much more & no one will be able to take that away from me. so it got me thinking... what if i use dance to service others. i want to help the world thru dance. if not the world, then my community but will eventually help the world. =]

every person who dances, dances with their own reasons & i think this is mine. i want to dance or USE dance as a platform to inspire & motivate others, create a dance program for the schools here in clark county, have shows to benefit worthwhile causes, motivate other dancers, etc. in my eyes, this is what makes sense. i feel as if i've had these whispers about going forth with dance in SOME way & slowly i feel these whispers turning into messages. now the messages have been stressing me out & have become a problem. i can't stop thinking about how i want dance to be a part of my life & who i am from now... untill forever.

recently, i've listened to a leadership/christian seminar on CD & it said on there... "god finished before he began" & it emphasizes that god has set a plan for you & put you on this earth for a reason. i'm suppose to start something that's already been finished & i can't help but feel that this is what i'm suppose to start. this is the direction & the vision that god has set for me.

dayna told me last night that i can do whatever it is i want & that anything is possible. all i have to do is say the word & it will be done. no one can tell me i can't do anything or stop me from doing what i love & want but myself. i think that i've stopped myself from making the leap.

ughhh! these next 2 months what out my parents are going to be a real soul searching & self discovering period for me. no parents to nag me & pressure me about anything... just me. so if it means for me to ask myself, "what do i want?" a million times to come to an answer, then so be it.

love of the dance

i don't even know how i came across this picture... i was searching images on 'soul searching' & this came up as one of the hits. random BUT how fitting is this picture to describe my love of dance. i don't know... but it totally gives that vibe to me.

if dance had a heart... it would look like this. =]